I need soo much help so please HELP ME [please ! ]?

sweetheart,, speaking from experience myself in a relationship of acholic abuse,, it only gets worse,, it took me nine yrs,, an two kids,, to finally see it wasn;t going to work,, all the goodness,, i tried to do,, but didn;t work,, except to leave,, an not look back,, now the kids dad died last yr,, an well it kinda will always haunt us....