Im soo ugly! :'( I NEED SOME ENGLIGHTENMENT!?

Im an asian and i live in uk so some people dont like me cos of my appearance. Im 14 and suffering from lots of spots! Anyway, I am fat! (5'7 11 and a half stone) Some people call me FUGLY AND FAT... Those mean girls in my school call me a as well cos of my build and my ugly face... ( I AM NOT A ! ) Im so ugly and fat! and I really dont know what to do... I have some friends but I dont think theyre really sincere friends... I think theyre just friends with me cos they feel sorry for me... I have this guy friend and I really like him! But he likes this other girl who is my friend too... Everytime I see them flirting, my heart is drowning... WHY DO I HAVE TO BE SOO UGLY! WHY! I never had a boyfriend before, well bcos im ugly! I tried wearing makeup but it simply doesnt suit me at all! HELP! PLS HELP! I AM SOO UGLY THAT I CAN KILL MYSELF! I AM REALLY DESPERATE! PLSSSS I NEED SOME ENLIGHTENMENT!